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Hug the ones you love

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on April 16, 2013 by finerstacy

I don’t have answers for what happened today, but I do know that I love Boston.  My time at Brandeis University was the most challenging experience I have ever had.  Mental health issues are not funny and they are not fun.  I lost a lot of friends and spent many days and nights wondering if I would ever feel better.  When my cloudy mind started to clear I tried to get involved in any activity that surrounded me with people.  Good people. Happy people. Driven people.   I found them in Massachusetts. I found them in Cambridge. I found them in Waltham.  I found them in Boston.  My dean would literally walk me to class.  My roommates would spell check my papers and made sure I was always invited to whatever they were doing.  My former sorority sisters took turns making sure that someone was there to hold me.    The director of my theater group would let me sit in her rehearsals all night.  Any rehearsal on any night and music teachers all across the city encouraged and taught me how to tap into my creative heart.   My crew coach and teammates let me stay with them and kept bringing me back on the team even when I was awful to be around.   And that was the thing.  How many chances does a person get to be worthy of love and worthy of someone’s time?  I never really did anything wrong or hurt anyone.  I was just not in my right mind.  But people kept pulling for me.  They kept hoping for me to find my way.  And I did.  I did it in Boston.  I got to see an entire school and state of people staking their claim on the future.  Setting themselves up for a lifetime of contribution.  It gave me hope.  It gave me something to live for.  Thank you Boston.  Thank you for the possibility.  I hope that peace comes to you soon.  I hope one day soon I can give to you what you gave to me.  A chance to be happy again. 

Hug the ones you love.  It helps so much.